Starlight star bright

Many a day that's all it's been waiting wishing wanting never satisfied looking for greener pastures that unsettling feeling that your not enough that your life doesn't measure up that worth depends on cash flow it oozes into every pore of existence the stench is nothing divine

It's Been a long time coming

Under construction 

Danger Zone

Do you intentionally put yourself or your family in danger ?
For most this is a stupid question..
For Bob and myself we have to look at this and say NO..
If there was a fire you wouldnt walk into it.
If there was danger you would do what was needed to avoid it.
So Today we make a choice to say No.
You have endangered us our marriage our children our Grandchildren our freedom..
You did this supposedly in the name of LOVE..
Bullshit !!!
You did it because of money and whos who...

Countdown

In just a few short hours 50 I will be.
When I look in the mirror its Grandma I see
So excited to still have time with my family
Its really exciting three and four on the way
The boy may be named Grady guess we will have to wait an  see
Danielle is having a rough time
God Bless her and four she is praying for a girl
We couldnt be excited more
Please heal and join together our family tree
Love is the answer
Waiting on God just you wait an see
He has a good plan for you and for me

Gods Plan

Just because its uncomfortable you run and pick and choose
Jesus says to Love like him
I find my Love quite small
I like to be alone sometimes
But lonely I shall never be
Because my Jesus sheds his Grace on me...

Forest throught the Trees..

What are you thinking about ?
That Beautiful tree that survived ice storm 2013
It is a differant tree
Never seen one like it before say most
Days there will be passersby who notice the tree
many a photo it has had
though it is differant it has beauty and worth
Though it is differant than most all seem to be drawn to it
What is it you say ?
No differant than the white beauty whos top is now tipsy turvy
bent off
Not yet broken
Survived but took a beating
Soon that top will die it will never grow any bigger
It will never be the same after the storm
Once it has been broken it never will return as healthy as before.
Its like life each experience changes you
Never returning to the innocence or ignorance perhaps ..

In the heat of this day

In the still times I see you.
In the chaos you are their .
I know the answer.
Most do not care.
He is the I Am.
The one to which we must turn.
He is the answer when all else is a blur.
Seek him in the morning and night.
He is the one turns darkness to light.
It is not a secret do not be dismayed.
He hung on the cross for just this kind of day.
The world is topsie turvy.
The land giving way to man.
Terror in Boston is not part of his plan.
We have a choice..
Look up or fall down..
He is the God man he is always around.
Knock and seek and the door will be open.
Do not believe that you are forgotten.

Doing it afraid

I was scared
I went with Love
To show a sinner none of us is above
I never spoke a word
Truth and confession is what I heard
Sin came out it lost its sting
Truth took the dark
Now turned to light
Failing I helped in the wrong way
Forgive me Lord I failed today
I so needed a friend I hurt the one I meant to defend
I cannot keep this in
My ugly stinking sin
My friend her life is turned upside down
God only you can help this now
I enabled in spite of my intention
God show Mercy and help us accept Grace....

Preparedness

I thought I had prepared for this but it didnt cut the mustard.
My man his heal is broken, he is so flustered.
He the one who I could count on.
Could do most anything.
Stuck in his chair, he cannot do a thing.
Electric lines are down across the yard and driveway.
Car frozen in garage.
I dont know what to say.
I tell him each few minutes, its all part of Gods plan.
As I really feel inside forgotten by my fellow man.
I know that is not true.
They all have much to do.
Not used to this helpless feeling.
My mind and body reeling.

This is the day that the Lord has made..

I will rejoice and be glad in it.
A good nights sleep in my bed.
The electricity on.
Life is so easy and we take so much for granted.
Lord help me to show the fruits of the spirit you have blessed me with.
How much we dont appreciate until it is taken away.
I hope I learn to appreciate the small things in each day.

In the still of the night

The beautiful birch carrying such a heavy load
Bent over and sagging
The sounds of Ice breaking limbs
The crackle of freezing
The candle lights flicker
A car in the ditch
Town is pitch black
Silenced and still
In the peace of dark
At times fear is gripping my heart
Father protect us and help us to rest
You surely are putting our faith to the test...

Healing Rain

Healing the soil the rain that falls.
Now there is ice all comes to a crawl.
Lord help me to trust you and leave myself.
Reliance and promises are what I seek.
There are times that I feel so weak.
Strengthen me Lord with your word.
Help me to cope when not an utterance is heard.
To know in silence you are still here.
I Love you father get me out of here.
Locked inside this head is dread .
Please bring me warmth and rest instead.
Your word brings life and peace.
Its you I need
Help me to knock and ask and seek til i find.
This path is so rough I feel so attacked.
Devil get out you have no place here.
My God is the victor and that is quite clear.
Take my hand Lord lead me to you just for today ,
let it not be me but you !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Border Bullies

Yeah you who sit smug with a kiss on the cheek and a hug.
Someone who is famous died now you all step up and cry....
Well just to get it off my chest you disgust me at your best.
Whisper in my ear, God help me out of here.
Your a lier and a thief and your friendship turned out cheap.
Bully that you are.
I want you to know I am a shooting star.
When I couldnt lift my head let alone get out of bed.
You talked behind my back every word was an attack.
Now you fill those Sunday church pews,
Thats the only time you hear the good news.
You obviously missed the mark.
Your religion is like a dart.
Bullseye !!!!
Thats you shrewd and rotten and crewd.
I cant stand your phony face.
Its my God that I embrace.
My faith is not weak !
My Prayers echo to My God and he comforts, protects and teaches me...
The secrets that we share.
The pain you could not bear.
Thats why he chose me and not you,
You would never make it through.
Yes at times the fire and flames leave singes on my mind.
But Thank you Jesus at least I am not blind...

Rain Drops

With each drop of rain you can see a green blade of grass sprout.
Jesus you are with us.
That there is no doubt.
We thank you for your Holy Spirit presence.
We now pause and pray.
Thankful to have each other.
The smallest things somehow matter.
Rich beyond measure.

Welcoming Spring !

I sat on the rear patio stilled by the sounds.
Spring is here there are blossoms all around.
The Birds are singing and dancing in the trees.
Should I be shocked by the stillness I feal.
We just celebrated Easter !
All was going as planned.
Then Bob took a spill.
Stopped dead in our plans.
What are we to do?
Jesus I heard you.
Trust Me and not you.
We shall see where this ride take us.
I gotta love and go along with Gods plan.
Father please take the pain from my man.
I Hope he can hear you.
For their is Beauty in stillness
New Life !
Tis A Journey quite Grand..
                                                           Love Ya..Whisperer............................

That faith thing ?

What a year it has been.
Do I spend the next year explaining myself ?
No
It is written! If we see a brother fall into sin, those that are righteous shall restore him lovingly.
Three women stopped to see me in that year and offered their friendship.
Today  the ones who left you alone to suffer in silence and try to call you friend shutter at your presence.
The backstabbers, the devils advocate,s they wish to eat you up, they need to make known that their stories and lies are true about where you have been.
My God is stopping them, those border bullies, those nobodies, those busy bodies, you know the ones the gosssips, thats what they are known for, they may have the biggest check book but they have a zero balance with My God. Jesus has revealed them to me and maybe to you.
what do we do with such information ?
We as gods word says shall restore them lovingly ?
How do we go about that task ?
Shall we offer a soft word, a smile, a loving outstretched arm of welcome ?
 I am not sure but this is the best answer I have...
I will continue to search in Gods word for answers and to put away my selfish hurt feelings to respond rightly ... Locked away in a prison of my own making I certainly was relying and calling upon God, but to the outside world I was faithless, I had given up and given in. A true testing was at hand. I walked through the fire and got burned ! That reveals to me a lacking in my daily walk. Was I ever going to get up and say enough is enough ? Yes, the day came and I shuttered as I made the first move. God has removed some persons from my life and I need now to trust and obey cause there is no other way to be happy in Jesus is to trust and obey. It is hard to let go of people you love and care about, it feels wrong, like I am giving up again.. Gods ways are higher than my ways and I need to walk in obedience even when it hurts . What a journey this life is. Lord help me to use the fruits of the spirit instead of leaving them like crumbs on a dry and drought stricken land, help me to practice daily these gifts as we travel this path together. Thank you for Loving me so much !!!! Amen

Holy Spirit Filled or Holy hell what was that ?

When the Holy Spirit came into my life he booted out all the phony people. The Bible bangers who know nothing about Jesus, nothing about what Gods word says, you know the ones who claim to Love Jesus, yet in their daily lives you would not recognize anything like Jesus. You know the ones who invite you when they want your check book and not you, the ones who use Jesus to make money and adopt babies and suck all the people they know dry for financial gain.  The ones who sit around and talk behind your back and cause you and others to stumble with their selfish, self serving dishonest, I am better than you attitudes. The ones who cant even handle listening to what you have been through, much less go through it or anything even close. The ones who claim to care for you except when your sick or hurting you never see or hear from them, but then in public they act like your buddies.. Puke !!!!! Gag !!!  You cant touch this spirit filled believer ! I thank you Father for teaching me so much about who I Do Not want to be! Those people who boast of themselves and everything they do is put out for the public to see, be it newspaper, radio or tv, the church bulletin or at the coffeehouse. Would they do it if they got no recognition ???? Hell No they wouldnt they prance around telling about all their worthy accomplishments. Stay away ! They will bring you down, chew you up, and spit you out, use you as their little do good charity case.. The thief comes to kill, steal and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it to the full til it overflows.  I choose the latter . To be Holy Spirit filled, Jesus is part of my everyday and I am never alone .. A sinner saved by Grace not better or worse than anyone, we are all sinners, all the work was accomplished by the father and Son and the cross. Thank you Abba

Heartbreaker

I am so delighted for my daughter to be closer and to see my beautiful Grandaughter. I prayed for this and the Lord answered me. I never expected it to be for this reason. I am torn and my heart aches for their family. From the first day I met charles I Loved him. I Loved him for the glow he put on my daughters face. I Loved his sweet and quiet personality, his genuine committment to his health and the way he seemed to shine when he looked at my daughter. I Loved his family when they came for the wedding, it was so fun having them all at the house. This family that came from far away to celebrate Charles and Stephanies wedding. The entire family was so polite and friendly and accepting of us, complete strangers. Every family has issues, as I am sure they did, yet, they could put them aside and be together and we truly enjoyed having them in our home it was an honor. The wedding was beautiful and all was well. Today as there family comes apart at the seams my heart aches for Ellie that her parents are not togehter and I worry about how this will effect her entire life. I pray that God will heal there marriage but It doesnt look like that is going to happen. If I would have had any idea how my actions would effect my children in their futures I certainly would have lived my life differantly. As I see them struggle and how they act and react to the stresses of life I know I failed them and was a very bad example. Children learn what they live I was told, yet I saw them rise above all the obstacles I placed in their paths. Now as young adults there is evidence that what they lived has had an effect on their relationships and other areas of their lives.

The Thief comes to kill steal and destroy

But I have come to bring life says My God..
Almost a year ago I sat in the back seat of the church I visited tonight for my daughters wedding.
Treated as a common criminal, ostricized, put down, heart bleeding, mind reeling.
For almost a year I suffered not being able to get past the disappointment, anger, hurt, rage and despair.Tonight my Father Invited me to offer up a prayer for my community at this church. To the altar I went, it was an awesome healing experience.  Man may put me down, My Jesus welcomes me to His Throne, an heir to his kingdom, my name written in the lambs Book of life. From where does your help come from ? My help comes from the Lord ! I will serve him all my days..

Just Fishin

Thats what they say.
Where are the Hudson's ?
There just fishin....
I can tell you that are just fishin was all part of Gods plan.
We met a teenage girl who needed LOVE.
We shared JESUS and she found LOVE.
We met a couple we call our friends
On Tuesday night Kathys life came to an end.
I do not look back and say did I ? Cuz we shared JESUS and he doesn't lie.
She did not care if I went to church or where.. How I lived or the clothes I wear.
She was my FRIEND I need say no more..
I have not written here for quite sometime..
Now here I am as I sit here and cry..
You don't even matter my other so called friends, who have turned out to be nothing but Hypocrites.
So you no longer have a place in my life..
The JESUS you  speak of does not offer life
Its all about you and how you look
Most of you never even open his Book
You preach it and swear that you know this God man
But your actions speak louder and define you from start to end
You sit and you gossip about things you don't know it has no reflection of the JESUS I KNOW..
The things that have happened on the banks of that river are big huge God Bumps that make me quiver..