Doubting Thomas..

Friday and Saturday this week I will be attending a healing conference and a healing service. I believe JESUS healing ministry is available to us all today just as it was with the lepers and the blind man. I do struggle and am not sure if I should call it periods of unbelief, I feel like I have had my portion already of JESUS healings. A stroke in 2007 following the left leg opened at the groin 6 times, 4 bloodclots, two stents in left femoral arterie that got a bloodclot stuck in it and collapsed, 1/2 the clot went to my brain the other was stuck in the stents, the surgery collapsed the stents and a fem to fem bypass with a synthetic graft in the groin area replaces blood flow to both legs and my entire body, a wound vac and then an allergic reaction that kept the wound open for 8 months, staph infection from the groin to the heart, then a flap surgery with a skin graft to close the wound. That is a short version of the year 2007 for me.. Life expectancy of the graft 10 years if I did not smoke, I quit for 6 months. It is now 2011 and after many tests the result is that the graft is failing, the left leg will be amputated and possibly the right is the prognosis for my future. In the last two years there have been many signs of a problem which til now has been a mystery, as recent as Friday parts of my body turned blue, I have times of total confusion and inability to move my arms or legs, chest pain and respiratory problems. Still smoking trying to quit !! Lord why can't I do this ? Lord you are the only one that can heal me and I ask that you would touch my body and heal it.. No matter what I will Love the Lord my God with all my heart and soul. I will live each day to the fullest, God has blessed me beyond all I could think or imagine. God has healed me many times and If nothing else I will attend to believe for others who need God's healing touch. I have experienced God's mercy more than I deserve and now I ask for more ? I struggle with that. I know God isn't finished with me yet !!!

The Whisper: 3 John 2 - Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.

Matthew 21:22 And all things ,whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall recieve.